The "Secret"

I have several friends that blog, and I love it! and what better way to reveal a family secret than by posting it online- at least it gets the word out to family and friends near and FAR!

On July 3rd 2010, our lives were forever changed (again) by a POSITIVE pregnancy test!
We were not going to officially "try to" conceive until fall, and I won't lie that I was shocked to have laid eyes upon this positive test. With the unusual body cramping, vivid and crazy dreams, and our cat deciding that he was going to love me again, lead me to believe that I was pregnant.

We apologize for the secret keeping, but the first trimester scares me. I of course am thinking the most positive of thoughts, but still remember in the back of my ever spinning head, that first pregnancy that we lost within the first 12 weeks.

So according to babycenter.com, we may be looking at a due date around March 5th. With no thanks to Mr. Technology (Owen), I no longer have my cell phone calendar that marked down important dates for such things as LMP, so I am GUESSING at this point.

I have a first appointment on July 27th, so maybe they can give a better date.
I am glad to say that most of the "uneasy feelings" have diminished now, and I am looking forward to this pregnancy as well as a new baby to love and cherish. I am still not ready for negative opinions from people thinking that we can't afford another child, or that we should have waited longer.... thus it still being a secret.

I think Jas and I have both wondered if we will ruin Owen's life by bringing another member into the family. But MY hope is that it won't ruin his life! It is with the my most sincere desire for Owen to have a playmate (hence the <3 years age difference), and someone else he can turn to years into the future when perhaps we have both passed. For me family gatherings are great, and I love to see the adult siblings still acting like children together.